Supposedly in Chaos there's a strange attractor -- a point of gravity around which all the random particles coalesce. In my life I think the strange attractor is non-leaving-America. Every time I try to get out of this country, something breaks down.
I was going to study in Finland, but a professor advised me against taking that much time away from my friends at school. During my enforced year off I attempted trips to Greece and Costa Rica. Greece ended up being too expensive. I couldn't find anyone to go to Costa Rica with me and I wasn't comfortable traveling alone yet. Most recently I've been planning summer trips to ireland, scotland, england, france and morocco. But I just found out my job might actually be a volunteer position, based on my financial aid award. I might not have work study, and so might not be earning the $400 a month I thought I was. Soo... if I am volunteering and not earning... I need to either get another 10-20 hour a week job, or I need to can Europe.
I was reading an old journal entry and it noted that things have always fallen apart like this, usually with better results. Something better usually comes up.
Here's hoping. I really want to learn about other cultures and people. It's too homogenous around me. Unstimulating really. It's been time to go for two years now.
Whatever happened next? You write such a page-turner. Except that it's a blog. Do post, please.
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