If you're walking on a tightrope, praying your way across an abyss, the stupidest thing you can do is to close your eyes. But wouldn't it be great if you closed your eyes and walked all the way across? But wouldn't it be great if you opened your eyes and found yourself in an oasis, when before your stupidity you'd been walking towards a desert?
I live nearly every day wondering what would happen if I closed my eyes on a tightrope. I live nearly every day wondering if I'd make it -- and if I did make it if I'd open my eyes to an oasis -- or if I'd never open my eyes again.
Sometimes the risk seems worth it, because right now I'm on the tightrope, and I'm risking my life for a desert.
Galen,
ReplyDeleteSometimes it's the hardest to trust God in a wilderness- times when you can't seem to see why you are on the course you have taken. Don't ever look away from your goal. Sometimes it would be easier to close your eyes in hopes that when you open them, you won't have to deal with the desert anymore. I know the tightrope is hard, believe me. But there are times when all you can do is trust the one who has led you thus far.
I often feel that way. Except instead of closing my eyes, I seem to be quite committed to throwing myself down off of the tightrope. That I spend any time at all not sunken down in the abyss is but by the grace of God alone.
ReplyDeleteSo, I think I read this a little differently than JJ and Raj. I'm now not quite sure what you intended to say, but I took this as, when I'm walking across the tightrope instead of working my hardest to get to the other side at all costs even if it means wandering into the desert, what if I really trusted God to get me across in his timing and bring me out on the other side to something better than I ever could have gotten to on my own? It seems so futile to risk my life for my plans, the only time the risk really seems worth it is if I'm following God's lead. So maybe I'll close my eyes and hold tight to God's hand and let him lead me wherever he will.
ReplyDeleteHowever you intended this, I hope God leads you to your oasis, Galen.
Aziner: you read it exactly right. Leaving the narrow track I've set my train upon is a stupid thing to do, but God really seems to want me to take the twisty windy dilapidated track and honestly, my heart wants to take it too.
ReplyDeleteI know the narrow track is the safe track, but what's the point of living forever if you hate every moment? Isn't that just a living hell? I think I'd rather die young and happy than have to endure 50 more years of wishing I'd taken the road less traveled.